Helplessness and Hopelessness

That's exactly how I felt

this morning

as I was going to work!!

As I stood at the bus stop,

I felt my bag being pulled,

as if people were passing by

and brushing against it,

which is quite so natural

... cuz of the time of the day,

that specific bus stop,

it's crowded with all kinds of people

rushing to go to work.

I was in the same situation myself ... and running late as usual.

Well, having felt my purse 'shaken',

I just grabbed it tighter against my body

and walked quickly towards the bus that had stopped ... just for me!!

(incredibly no one else got on the same bus as me today)

I reached my hand into the side pocket of my purse

where I keep my bus-pass, cell phone and chapstick ...

and I didn't feel all the three items I am used to feeling

as I stuck my hand into the little pocket.

THE MOBILE WAS GONE!!

So I quickly turned around towards the direction I saw people walking past me and for my unfortunate surprise

... a man had a grin on his face and waved me 'bye'

... totally dissing me, of course!!

His little trick or game worked on me!

I was so shocked and appalled that I had no idea what to do.

A feeling of helplessness and hopelessness overcame the little Sara

who just stood there like an idiot looking at this ridiculous man.

I just remember not being able to do anything

and getting on the bus, that was waiting on me,

with a total feeling of defeat.

I wanted to cry!!

Well, I lost my little Chocolight and

the little green cross pendant my mommy gave me.

>.<

(I think all this happened within 10 seconds time)